Sometimes you don’t feel fine; so you take a long and hard glance at your life and guess what? Everything is fine! everything is in place, you’re doing alright, nothing changed, at least not to the worse and you even have an idea or two about how to improve your overall situation.

You know you’re fine, you know that nothing is wrong with your life but you’re not feeling fine…you’re feeling something else.

You’re about to explode maybe? Wondering about things and questioning the unquestioned, imagining things like flying and car crashes in the middle of a normal day, day-dreaming for days, goofy-dancing in public, testing God’s boundaries, analyzing life and making theories, listening to gloomy songs while lying on your bed, reading anything and everything you can find, making shapes from the clouds maybe?, experimenting, painting, wishing upon stars, talking to God for days, sleeping in an odd hour of the day…it’s an endless list of things we don’t usually do, things that we mistakenly think of as bad, that indicate a bad state of mind…or soul! And we simply assume that because we’re not feeling fine; then we must be feeling the opposite of that and the opposite of that is naturally bad. But what is fine and what is not really?

The point I’m trying to make here is that just because you’re not feeling fine; it doesn’t mean you’re feeling the opposite of that.

Even if you feel like you’re drowning although you’re as dry as … well my humor! , even if you feel so detached, so calm, so crazy…why is that bad? Why is that a sign that you’re not fine? can you deny that you’re probably more alive when you’re not fine (remember it doesn’t mean you’re the opposite of fine)? I know I am! I know that there’s beauty in what we usually refer to as sadness or depression, such strong yet unfair definitions of a deep, inspiring state of mind…and soul.

I’m not fine, I’m happy.